He wants me to know Him personally. Not just on a church level or public level. He wants me to know Him the way He knows me. I have been trying to find Him for a while but what I failed to notice is that I have been looking in all the wrong places. Friends, churches, books, internet.... You name it and I have tried to find Him. He has been with me this whole time.
In my Sunday school class we have been doing a study on the many names of God. The one thing that we keep coming back to is how our lives are a journey. A long road of ups and downs that we must push through in order to learn the lessons that Gos wants us to learn. Everyones lessons are different since everyone is going through their own problems. Sometimes we don't learn our lesson at the end so instead of going along the path to get closer to Him, we have to take another lap around the rink. After doing this a few times it gets to be exhausting. I know I am tired of taking my lap around trying to "find Him." I am not quite ready yet to day that I have learned that lesson yet but I feel I have finally broken through the "searching" part. I can finally start to hear Him teach me what He wants me to hear and now it is my responsibility to listen or He will have me take another lap.
My personal journey with God has been short so far and I know He knows me more than I know myself. He knows I am stubborn, and that I like to try to do things my own way but I feel Him guiding my heart towards the listening part. One day I will get it and I feel great knowing that He has complete confidence that I will one day too!